I'm Back (Maybe)

It has been a long time since I blog.. Lots of things has happened but one thing that is still consistent is how much I love her.. I was in one of my foul moods when it suddenly hit me that it's in the most difficult moments that I love her most deeply. We have begun to talk about bring our relationship to the next level. What, at first, I thought seems to be the natural progression but it's not so. We have something that I have never experience before, can't exactly put in words what 'it' is.. It's just 'It'! I look around me and I see relationships and marriages stagnant or fail around me. I think it just comes down to the 'C' word. COMMITMENT! I learnt that big time in various stages of my AW journey. When the lovey dovey feelings go away, the roses wilt and the clouds are gone, it is commitment that drives a person. The ironic part of it: commitment is about focusing out to someone.

A Prayer

I have stopped blogging for a long time..
N I'm back!
Finally, we get to lead our own lives..
Just the two of us..
In the ride of Life..

What did I do to deserve you?
Your smile, your tickles, your grin..
Your understanding, your challenges..
Your coaching, your passion, your singing,
Your family..
I love you

Thank you, Lord, for binging us together..
I pray that You will continue to guide us through our moment of follies
And continue to bless our relationship with Your Graces..

5 Days

People ask me why I do it?
I do it cos I'm given a gift.
A gift that scares me sometimes.
But it's so wrong not to use it.

Everytime I give, I got something back..
This time I got the greatest gift of all..
I have someone in my Life who loves me..
Who sees me bigger than I see myself..

GLP 64, I salute you.
I'm everything I'm because you love me.

11 Days

Last Sat I finally get to see you sing in a concert,
When you parted your lips,
And your voice came through,
It was as if an angel was singing..
I was speechless..

Saying that I love you,
And experiencing it in me,
Both are so different in experience..
Never felt something so deep..
Such raging emotions!

16 Days

I sat there watching you sing,
Like an angel from high above,
Whom sent by Him to grace the Earth.
Blessed is He who bestow you with such a voice.

The passion in your voice..
The emotions raging..
I could hear them all..
Felt that you were singing to me..

In your arms I lie,
Stretch to the limits..
So much more I can give..
So much more I will give..

Your hands in mine..
Fragile though they feel..
And yet assuring..
Yes, those were the hands that held me up..

I feel so blessed,
Cos you allow me into your space,
Cos you held me up when I crumble,
Cos you demanded the best in me,
Cos you trust me,
Cos you love me.
Thank you

23 Days

You sent me this yesterday via email..

wondering what you're doing
wondering how you are
wondering if you're thinking n missing me
wondering how long more i have to wait

staring at my fone to see if you texted

recalling how it feels to have your hand in mine
recalling how it feels when you call me dear